Parents went Postal

What a semester. I am now engaged to be married and my parents went off the deep end. Grayson was sent to FL where I had to go down and fight in court to get him back in the middle of my Fall Senior semester. This semester has been a nightmare but I worked hard and finished amazingly with good grades. God has given me a lot of strength.

My parents took my house and changed all the locks. They put no trespassing signs up and stole all my things and my childrens... I feel like I am divorcing all over again.

Grayson is back with me in public school now. He is doing great. I am so proud of him and we are finally bonding as a family should without additional headaches. I am glad they are out of my life they have done nothing but cause me pain.

Keep us in your prayers.

Junior Year Over at Albion

Wow! One year down at a four year college. This year has brought a lot of firsts for me. I went away to school which was the hardest decision I have ever had to make but I know the Lord opens the doors we just have to walk through them. It has been a hard year. I have never studied so hard in my entire life but it was completely worth it. My first semester I took Forensic Psychology which is what I really want to go into it. It was AMAZING. I loved it. I also took Social Psychology and 2 political science courses. I ended the semester with a 3.925. Almost 4.0. Straight A's nonetheless. WOO HOO!!!!

Second semester I had Developmental Psychology, Research Design and Analysis I (Statistics and learning how to enter in data for experiments), Psychology of Personality, and Geology. Ughhhh what a hard semester. If it was not for my boyfriend David I am not sure I would have made it.... But I ended up with another 3.925 that darn Geology 3.7 So, I did end up with A's again but oh my very hard.

I found a very special man downstate we have been together since the Fall. Possible wedding bells at the end of next school year. He is fabulous. God works in mysterious ways. Never know what is going to happen next. This summer I am studying for my GRE so that I can get into Graduate School for Clinical Psychology.

Would love to hear from you all.
Much love.

BIAS JUDGE RADZIBON DEFEATED

Judge Radzibon's reign of terror on the lives of people is at a close. He has been one of the worst Judges in Rogers City and has ruined many lives. I just wish people would take a stand out against unjust rulers such as Radzibon.

In court this past month. We had over 25 people in court who heard Radzibon say: "There is a lot that has gone on in this case, maybe I need to get over it, but I am not ready to." This was in regards to asking to allow my daughter to be able to visit family during holidays out of state. He did give me shared legal. But took away all parenting time except every other weekend. Once again he went against Friend of the Court's recommendation. FOC recommended shared legal and physical. I am working on an appeal right now.

There are not many people in this world that I despise but Radzibon is one of them. I hope that he gets whatever he deserves. I plan to take this case to the Judicial Tenure Commission, as well. I don't think he deserves tax payers paying any sort of Judicial pension. And when I am done I am praying that I have full custody of my daughter.

Radzibon said in court that my son and daughters relationship with each other is not important. And he made sure that it was not. He didn't rule for the best interest of the child. He ruled out of his feelings and emotions. As a judge he should have NONE.

HOT!!!! HOT!!!! HOT!!!!

This summer has been quite the scorcher. I have actually had to get out my shorts. Yes, my little blinding white legs that glow in the dark have been in shorts. IMAGINE THAT... That is HUGE for me. I am almost always in pants up here. Although this morning it is in the 60's so that is a bit chilly. I am being brave and still going to wear a short sleeve dress to church.

Samantha and I got a new kitten in April. We have named him Mr. Gable. For Clark Gable since he is a little cad. He will make you fall in love with him one minute and furious at him the next. He is nothing but a bundle of trouble. But what can I say.... I like the men in my life that way. HA HA HA... Why would the cat or dog be any different. And Touche' our dog is no better. He is into trouble all the time as well. Thank goodness my kids are sweet and good.

I have had Samantha 3 of my 5 weeks already and that makes me kinda sad. I love having her here so much. There is nothing like having both of my children home together. Whenever there is just Samantha or just Grayson... the house seems a little empty. I am thankful for the times that I do get both of my children together. I know my ex will never get that pleasure ever again and it burns him. My ex's family keeps trying to include Grayson in their life and Grayson really doesn't want to be part of any of it. He can't stand them and knows they are not Christians. They drink and smoke around him and the "grandfather" is a drug addict and "uncle" is a convicted drug addict. I don't like to rock the boat with them because it just causes too many problems... I don't need anymore of those. But I think Grayson at 10 should be able to say "You are not my family anymore" Grayson is a remarkable child... and we knew he had a calling on his life he told us this Spring that he wants to become a Pastor. So, we are trying to encourage him in the Lord, as much as, possible.

I have been in the mood to write alot lately. I guess it just comes with the territory when I am passionate or emotional writing is my outlet to let some of what I build up inside to be let out. And I tend to let most things build up and quietly deal on my own. I am so used to it now. I think that is my biggest thing with God. For some reason I think I can do it better than Him so I hold on to it. I am not a worrier like my mom but boy, am I stubborn about giving it to the Lord. I am not sure what I think I can do about it... HA HA HA... Why I can't give my issues over to the Creator of the galaxy is honestly beyond me.

I am reading Pilgrim's Progress this summer. WoW!! If you are a Christian and have not read this or read this when you were younger I strongly suggest you pull it out or buy a copy and read it again. I am reading the New English version since as a church we are reading this. I think I would prefer the original text, but I am a nerd and love Old English. Yes, I am a dork I admit it. HA!!

What else is going on here... I got all my schooling and classes set up for Fall. I am taking 2 Psych classes one of which is FORENSIC... I was soooooooooo excited about this one. Out of my 4 classes I have 9 books that I will be reading. WHOAH!!! Good thing I like to read. I have been reading my Forensic book already I want to get it finished and one of my other ones to get a good head start for the semester. All I have to say is Holy Smokadoo.... I will have no time for boys, men, or ones that think they are... heheheheehehehe....

I bought a Purity Ring. It says on the inner ban I Will Wait for... and on the top it says My Beloved. I felt I needed to do this. It's a good reminder for me. Since I struggle in this area a lot after being married. I will just say it I MISS SEX.... not that my ex was great Mr. Cheater. But nevertheless I don't miss it with him just in general.

Well I am sure I will be on this site more and more. I have missed writing a lot.
I better run before I am late for church. We are studying the Parables of Jesus. Last week was the Seeds and Soil... what kind of seed are you? I could write forever about that...

Anywho.
Catch ya on the flip side

THE LETTER I'LL NEVER SEND by Rebecca Scida

The letter I'll never send

Would calm ask you why

You broke my heart in two

And told my love goodbye.

If I ever sent this letter

It would sweetly state

You tangled up your destiny

And interrupted fate.

The letter I will not write

Would casually inquire

How can you live without me--I was your one desire

If you received this letter

It would politely say

You need me in your life now

You can't go on this way

The letter I'll never send

Would then be briskly signed

"Your one and only Love"

You know--the one you left behind.

GAMES

Games... Almost everyone I know tells me they are not looking to play games both men and women. They just want someone who is straight forward and says what they mean. NO GAMES!!! I think I have probably even said that a few times. heheh... but do we really mean that??? I know when a man decides to be deceitful that my mind flips into overdrive and it really becomes a game and usually he never knows what hit him. Dishonesty is a no no with me. If it happens then as the ref says in the UFC ring GET IT ON... and I have my gloves on.

I know for me I love a good game. I know the game of cat and mouse is usually an enjoyable one. It's not much fun if you can easily catch a the mouse but if the mouse is coy and spirited and highly intelligent and of course inventive that makes the mouse more fun to play with. Men don't usually like women that are easy... yes they might be a good lay but on the whole of what they want commitment wise... then no bimbo Barbie just won't cut it.

I know as a child I loved games. We all did as children. We still do, as adults, it doesn't have to be a board game... some of us are attracted to WHODUNIT's in books or movies... We almost all love a good thriller that shocks us as we sit there going "oh my I never thought that would happen". We are thrill seekers in some form or another. It just depends on our personality. That is how the Lord made us, we are not boring creatures.

I guess for me I just want to come right out and say that I love a good game. I know how to play it well too. The game of love yes, I have lost out on it a few times usually because I love to play the CAT. I am no mouse to be caught. I love to dare anyone to seems to think otherwise. The psychological aspect of the chase is what excites me. I love mental and emotional strategies... if I move this way he will do this or that. Love is a game... Attraction is the best one of all. Women can use our female 6th sense and usually get exactly what we are wanting. Hands down if a woman is very comfortable in her own skin and knowing who she is that is a big turn on for a man. Confident woman = awesome game player.

Now, I have to say for myself I do prefer a "CAT" in a man. I love a confident strong personality. He knows what he wants and how to get it. But there must also be that sensitivity. I am not looking for a Stray Cat that sprays every where he roams... Mr. Another Notch in my Belt... you are not really the Cat I am describing here.

The Game, sometimes yes, it gets old. Some mice are a bore once you finally catch them so, I personally quickly let them go from my sharp claws. And yes, they are sharp, I don't suggest you test them out. For me, the mind is my favorite playing field. There are so many aspects that you can play on when it comes to the mind, be creative. So, I love to find men that can stimulate my brain, if he is good looking then that is a plus but he has to intrigue me. He has to show me he is interested and have that confidence and possibly a tinge of arrogance so he lets me know he is worth my time.

I would love for once to hear someone tell me they love a good game and say let's play and see who wins. But in the end I want to find one that will play for keeps; that will keep the game going and keep the interaction interesting. The Lord knows that this little Cat does not like to be bored.

God Bless

Vacation Bible School June 12-16

Wow, how amazing VBS was this year. I had most of the week off except Friday so I got to participate 4 out of the 5 days. There were some major battles. Julie, my ex's wife (whore), decided that she was going to take Samantha out swimming rather than to VBS one day. Samantha came in and was very upset that Julie was not going to let her go to VBS. So I wrote Jamie said what is going on. I told him what Samantha said and reminded him that he committed her to this activity. He told me that he scheduled Samantha to go swimming. So, I said why schedule her somewhere else when especially when it is too cold to go swimming it was in the low 60's and chilly that week. He was very mad at me for standing up to him about trying to make Samantha choose. His big thing is that he is going to allow Samantha to do what she enjoys and what she wants. So I then asked him if that was really the case then why does he refuse to let her go to Sunday School on the days he has her if he is really interested in making Samantha happy. Needless to say Samantha made it all 5 days to VBS so the Lord had a large victory.

Samantha on Wednesday brought me a special picture book of events and real pictures of Samantha in her 1st grade year. They were photos of her and I as well. It was AWESOME. She had not been allowed to give it to me until then because Julie and Jamie were mad that the teacher had made one for me, specifically.

Also, same week. Samantha had her Soccer Banquet. I let Jamie know I would take Samantha and that her Trophy would be coming home with me since Samantha should have things she is proud of in both homes and how he had all the certificates from School that this will be coming to my house. It was a nice evening and the trophy also came home.

WHAT A LONG "stressful" WEEK. But thank you God for being with us every single step of the way. Could not have dealt with it without you.