WHEN HELL’S AT YOUR HEELS
Hey there!!! How are you doing? I hope that you are having a great week. Mine has been a constant struggle with heavy Spiritual and earthly warfare going on. But, I am still standing and here I am to talk to you about it and up lift your sweet spirit. I know that Satan is working overtime with God’s children. As I am typing I am listening to the new WOW! 2004 Hits which is 2 Christian CD’s of multiple artists. It is really AWESOME!! Just trying to prepare my heart to speak to you with the sensitive spirit of Jesus Christ, He is just so wonderful. Praise His Holy Name!!!
I just feel the urge to come to you and speak of how it is so important that no matter what struggles come your way that you seek His face and go to Jesus. The struggles I have faced this week have become so overwhelming. I have been hit from all sides from dealing with my ex, a severe hurricane heading for my son, my daughter’s abuse, my heart, my financial, court, ect… I have been dealt some severe blows all within about 4 days… Sigh… I just lift my hands up and just praise You, Lord. You are my Father, my trust is in You… have mercy on me. I sing praises to You. I think that when we can find joy in bad and praise Him anyways that our relationship grows and our walk strengthens. I can’t express how important it is to put all your faith and trust in Him. We are not in control… He is. What can we really do? What can others really do to us? We are His children under His protective wing. We just need to surrender to Him fully, that includes our life, heart, mind and above all our will. It is so hard to honestly say Your will God, not my own.
I know this letter is different from most that I write. I am getting very preachy with you but my heart is led to share these truths with you. Your prayer life (how much time you spend in prayer talking to God) reflects your relationship with the Lord (your Christian walk). So, my question is how much time do you spend with Him? I know for me that I have been slacking big time. I have gotten off track from where I was. That is hard to admit but we should honestly evaluate our heart. I have become so overwhelmed with circumstances of how people treat me and gotten frustrated and angry with the Lord because my prayers seem to be answered when it comes to others and small things that are not of great importance to me. But when it comes to my little girl I just can’t really see Him doing anything. He is telling me to wait… I am reminded of Jezebel and Ahab. They were so wicked and the dogs crushed their bones. I know He has protected me from jail on several occasions. I do see His hand on many things but Samantha is still getting hurt. She told me that he hits her with a belt now… L I just can’t handle a whole lot more. I am not even going to tell you what I would like to do to him. It enrages me. Let me just say, if we were in FL the gators would have a nice snack. Soooo frustrating! This whole situation has been putting my complete faith that the Lord is going to answer our prayers and deliver us. I’m just not sure when that is going to be. I do love the Lord with all my heart and soul; I know that He is listening. I also know that Jamie is on edge because of how he reacted to me this week when I came to school for Samantha’s first day of Kindergarten; she was thrilled and he freaked out on me after wards. He was verbally assaulting me in the parking lot. So mature, Jamie is nuts. Sigh…. I don’t care because Samantha was happy and that is all that matters.
I have been watching the weather channel since hurricane Frances is getting terribly close to South Florida where my son, father, and brother all are. So, that has been an additional concern of mine. But I have prayed and prayed and firmly believe that it is going to hit north of them. But for several days they were projecting that the Eye would hit them. That was just one more thing that fell upon me this week. I have really been hard at work to not allow the devil to get the better of me. One day I just sat and played hymns and sang to renew my spirit and mind. I needed to be refreshed and filled. Oh… there is a song playing called EVERYTHING TO ME by Avalon. I will find the lyrics and send them to you. Awesome song!
Our neighbor brought over the Passion of the Christ. As you know, I have not seen this yet. I am having so many mixed emotions… I started it last night but had to stop it. A friend of mine had to stop 3 different times during it. I am so passionate about my love and faith that I have been an advocate to myself that I don’t want to see it. I have a vivid imagination and mind because I love to read. I have read so many books about the Crucifixion… there is a book called The Case for Christ which describes it in great medical detail. I am a facts person, logical, not overly emotional… So, this movie is really making me struggle. I think it is great that others get so much out of it but for me I am not sure what I will get from it. I don’t think it will bring me any closer to my Lord. But I am going to watch it and let Him speak to me. It will definitely make me more sensitive and compassionate and maybe that is something that I need to be. When it comes to fallen Christians and children I am very compassionate, which I am so grateful that my spirit is so sensitive to their souls. I know the Lord has always led me to help others. Helping children is a new endeavor that I am becoming more and more passionate about. I think He is going to really be able to use me I just try to keep my spirit pure and pliable. We are the clay and He is the potter. I just keep begging Him to use me, to mold me into who He wants me to be. I want to be useful to Him no matter what He asks of me. My life is truly in His hands. I am His child and I am seeking to walk after my Father’s footsteps.
I pray that you are seeking the same. May God fulfill your hearts desire and answer your prayers.
Faithful Destiny
I just feel the urge to come to you and speak of how it is so important that no matter what struggles come your way that you seek His face and go to Jesus. The struggles I have faced this week have become so overwhelming. I have been hit from all sides from dealing with my ex, a severe hurricane heading for my son, my daughter’s abuse, my heart, my financial, court, ect… I have been dealt some severe blows all within about 4 days… Sigh… I just lift my hands up and just praise You, Lord. You are my Father, my trust is in You… have mercy on me. I sing praises to You. I think that when we can find joy in bad and praise Him anyways that our relationship grows and our walk strengthens. I can’t express how important it is to put all your faith and trust in Him. We are not in control… He is. What can we really do? What can others really do to us? We are His children under His protective wing. We just need to surrender to Him fully, that includes our life, heart, mind and above all our will. It is so hard to honestly say Your will God, not my own.
I know this letter is different from most that I write. I am getting very preachy with you but my heart is led to share these truths with you. Your prayer life (how much time you spend in prayer talking to God) reflects your relationship with the Lord (your Christian walk). So, my question is how much time do you spend with Him? I know for me that I have been slacking big time. I have gotten off track from where I was. That is hard to admit but we should honestly evaluate our heart. I have become so overwhelmed with circumstances of how people treat me and gotten frustrated and angry with the Lord because my prayers seem to be answered when it comes to others and small things that are not of great importance to me. But when it comes to my little girl I just can’t really see Him doing anything. He is telling me to wait… I am reminded of Jezebel and Ahab. They were so wicked and the dogs crushed their bones. I know He has protected me from jail on several occasions. I do see His hand on many things but Samantha is still getting hurt. She told me that he hits her with a belt now… L I just can’t handle a whole lot more. I am not even going to tell you what I would like to do to him. It enrages me. Let me just say, if we were in FL the gators would have a nice snack. Soooo frustrating! This whole situation has been putting my complete faith that the Lord is going to answer our prayers and deliver us. I’m just not sure when that is going to be. I do love the Lord with all my heart and soul; I know that He is listening. I also know that Jamie is on edge because of how he reacted to me this week when I came to school for Samantha’s first day of Kindergarten; she was thrilled and he freaked out on me after wards. He was verbally assaulting me in the parking lot. So mature, Jamie is nuts. Sigh…. I don’t care because Samantha was happy and that is all that matters.
I have been watching the weather channel since hurricane Frances is getting terribly close to South Florida where my son, father, and brother all are. So, that has been an additional concern of mine. But I have prayed and prayed and firmly believe that it is going to hit north of them. But for several days they were projecting that the Eye would hit them. That was just one more thing that fell upon me this week. I have really been hard at work to not allow the devil to get the better of me. One day I just sat and played hymns and sang to renew my spirit and mind. I needed to be refreshed and filled. Oh… there is a song playing called EVERYTHING TO ME by Avalon. I will find the lyrics and send them to you. Awesome song!
Our neighbor brought over the Passion of the Christ. As you know, I have not seen this yet. I am having so many mixed emotions… I started it last night but had to stop it. A friend of mine had to stop 3 different times during it. I am so passionate about my love and faith that I have been an advocate to myself that I don’t want to see it. I have a vivid imagination and mind because I love to read. I have read so many books about the Crucifixion… there is a book called The Case for Christ which describes it in great medical detail. I am a facts person, logical, not overly emotional… So, this movie is really making me struggle. I think it is great that others get so much out of it but for me I am not sure what I will get from it. I don’t think it will bring me any closer to my Lord. But I am going to watch it and let Him speak to me. It will definitely make me more sensitive and compassionate and maybe that is something that I need to be. When it comes to fallen Christians and children I am very compassionate, which I am so grateful that my spirit is so sensitive to their souls. I know the Lord has always led me to help others. Helping children is a new endeavor that I am becoming more and more passionate about. I think He is going to really be able to use me I just try to keep my spirit pure and pliable. We are the clay and He is the potter. I just keep begging Him to use me, to mold me into who He wants me to be. I want to be useful to Him no matter what He asks of me. My life is truly in His hands. I am His child and I am seeking to walk after my Father’s footsteps.
I pray that you are seeking the same. May God fulfill your hearts desire and answer your prayers.
Faithful Destiny
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