Student Again

Hiya,

I have not had much time to breathe much less post what I have been dealing with lately. You know me my life is far from dull and boring.

My ex scheduled his wedding on my holiday on Labor Day so we had to go into court and fight about that. He didn't bring an attorney in so I believe it was a fair fight. I am getting really good at representing myself in court. Heh! Well I ended up getting Thankgiving holiday and an extra weekend in October. So, that was pretty cool and Jamie just looked like a jerk but everyone is catching on that he is not nice at all. Friend of the Court is more on my side lately they are seeing how manipulative he is. So that is a positive thing. So, he is now married to the whore he left me for but she is in college in her own apartment somewhere in Michigan. I don't think with her track record of 3 marriages now and his possessive psycho mannerisms it will last. I am sure they are quite the happy couple... *chuckle* Samantha comes here and talks about how upset he is all the time and he is never happy. Couldn't happen to a nicer fellow honestly. heh

I, myself, started back to school this Fall. I am taking Western Civ, Humanities, Abnormal Psychology, and Legal Research and Writing I.... A mix of Psych and Law still not sure what I want to do exactly but I know kinda where I want to head. I know I would make a fantastic attorney and if I went that route I would want to specialize in suing the government and other promenient agencies for malicious prosecution and malpractice. Not many attorney's touch such cases but my main goal is to help people. Especially children that have been abused by the system like my daughter.

Oddly enough in school I see good ol' Radzibon my Judge he teaches Political Science. He has been very nice to me when he sees me and I of course am respectful and courteous to him. It's hard to smile to a man that has destroyed your life and your child's life but I know in due time it will eventually work out somehow. But he sees me in school every Tuesday and Thursday. So, that is good for me.

I am still working very hard in my job. I work on Wednesdays, go in before school at 7 a.m. on Thursdays, and then Friday and Saturday. So I have a full plate. Between work and school and the children I don't have time to breathe.

I have met someone that I have been talking to since the 1st of August. Not sure what is going to happen with him. His name is Scott and he lives downstate. He comes from a Catholic background which isn't the best but he is open to a more Evangelical look at religion so that is a positive. I just met him face to face after 6 weeks of phone and webcam conversations. The friendship is still new so we shall see what happens. I doubt that I am what he is really looking for.

My relationship with God... hmmm I am not sure I can really say I have one with Him anymore. I know how bad that sounds. But I feel very discouraged and a lot of anger when it comes to Him. In Western Civilization I am doing an Exploratory Essay on the Sanhedrin and Jesus' Trial. I watched a portion of The Passion and I do love my Savior its just really hard to explain otherwise. I guess I am just jaded. Too much has happened and not enough salvation of the situation I have been through with all the prayers that I prayed and everyone else has prayed. So, I just don't really care anymore. It's sad to say that... and I get tears in my eyes when I say it but... for now that is just how it is. I just don't feel Him anymore.

I will post more soon enough when I have more to say. Hope everyone is well.

Me